There are some people who have been
living their life trying to find their great perhaps or trying to figure out a
way to escape the labyrinth. There are some people who have been living their
life searching for someone who would give them a little infinity of happiness
or a forever within numbered days. There are also people who kept finding a
formula to understand what’s wrong with them and they even created a theorem to
prove it. But I am different from these people. I am someone who’s looking for
an abundance of my stars’ fault.
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| Looking for Alaska, source: effyeahnerdfighters.com |
In my fourteen years of my
existence, I think that I am too imaginative of what will be my future and the
things that are going on around me. I overthink about my thoughts and how to
prove that I am right about it. I kept on trying to find a way to my great
perhaps. I kept looking for the real me but all I do was seek for an escape out
of my labyrinth. When I die, I want the people to remember my famous last
words. These things are unexplainable, so unexplainable that for me, it doesn’t
make sense anymore.
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| The Fault in Our Stars, source: socitey9.com |
At a very young age, I have
awakened to the fact that I am a side effect of the earth’s oblivion and at the
same time, I realized that I am no Hazel Lancaster to find the Augustus Waters
of my life. There are people who have given me a little infinity of happiness
and indeed it was little. There are people who have given me forever within
numbered days except that they didn’t die, they only have set an expiration
date to their feelings for me, I have cursed myself for having this fault in my
starts but then, I have realize that some things are worth being the privilege
of being hurt by it because it made me realize that the best things in life
comes in the disguise of the worst things.
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| An Abundance of Katherines, source: flickr.com
And the last thing, I already had
enough of the abundance of the out of the world cosmos of my imaginations. It’s
so out of the worlds that even creating a theorem would not be enough to
explain it. Even if I try to anagram the words in my life, it would not be enough.
Maybe the unfortunate things in my life are already abundant for me but it
makes sense though. This abundance made me learn and realize how to manage the
things that I deserve and the things that I don’t deserve. It made me compute
for the right amounts of pain and happiness in this world.
These are the things that I learned
from John Green. These are the things that helped me see a clearer path to
understanding myself and my can’t be understand thoughts. From Looking for
Alaska, The Fault in Our Stars and to An Abundance of Katherines, I have known
something. I have found a sudden realization of happiness out of these books
and actually, I never expected to find this kind of feeling. That’s the
serendipity I found on John Green’s books. Thank you, John Green.
Next stop, Paper Towns.
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| Paper Towns, source: flickr.com |
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